When I told him it was the first day of my retirement, he asked, “Are you frightened?” His guileless question startled me. But I don’t know him very well, we’re just getting acquainted, so I didn’t pursue the matter.
He was right, I suppose, to expect there may be fear beneath the exhilaration. I recognize the same old feelings set in opposition to each other that I felt at my wedding, and at my ordination. Only then, it was because I was taking something on. Now, it’s because I am giving something over, and am heading off, on my own, into the geography of the heart.
Edward R. Dufresne © 2003